TW: mentions abuse and self harm - no descriptions. Our system has felt under threat over the last few months and has gone into defcon 1, high level alert, code red! It thinks it is fighting for our life again and is pulling out all the dissociative weapons at its disposal. This has meant living … Continue reading On derealisation, depersonalisation and amnesia
Tag: staying present
Sick
TW: Contains brief description of trauma triggers. No one enjoys getting sick. We finally succumbed to COVID last week and have been reflecting on our responses to it. First comes the usual fear and anger towards ourselves. Will we be in trouble? Are we really unwell or just making it up? Are we unwell enough … Continue reading Sick
Exhausted
*Trigger warning: mentions self harm* We are exhausted! The kind of exhausted where we cannot thermoregulate, our body so hot that we think we are running a fever, later so cold that we wonder if we will ever be able to warm up. The kind of exhausted where we feel sick and dizzy, hands shaking, … Continue reading Exhausted